hello dears,


my hair is nice today <3

haven't been writing for a while, I know. ^^°
Today I can already eat something and 5 days fasting have already passed. Well I lost about 2 kilos, which isn't much but okay since I held my wheight from the last fasting where I lost 5 kilos. I'ts still a way to go to loose 10 kilos.

anyways I'm gonna buy new clothes today. <3
I always envy yasu for his clothes. Japanese clothes are just SO much cooler but ya can't buy them here.

weel, almost time to go. I'll make a short stop at the immermannstraße and hope no annoying visu-kids are there...because honestly they scare the f****** s**** out of me ne.

bai bai~ 

Talking about Idols...
I actually divide J-Rockers in 3 groups.

1st there is the very distant group...for me those people are really unreachable. For instance Mana...or Gackt and such. But also Members of Alice nine, Ayabie, Gazette and such. Because for me those people don't seem to be real existing. Although I read their blogs and such...they are like...Dolls. Yeah, they exist so fans can think of them as they please and project their hopes/dreams/what ever into those persons. So they are living dolls.

2nd there are those who seem real to me. Mucc seems real to me and Girugamesh...and D'espairs Ray...don't ask me why. Maybe because Hizumi reminds me of Nheira...and, as some of you know, I think of Nheira as a "real" person. Those persons have character for me...You don't really have to imagine about how they could be in real life because you can see their character, also you can see that they all actually are normal persons like you and me, and that's what makes them so likeable.

3rd is the genius. First person I think of is Kyô. People tend to put him in the 1st category. But I can't because he actually seems too real to me, but the more he seems real to me, the more I feel reverence for him. I think of him as a genius and at the same time I'm afraid that he get's lost in this genius world of his. You know what I mean ? Just like Dalí or other geniuses.
Actually I can't imagine Kyô to die old in his bed...Kyô is just to extreme for something like that, and that kind of frightens me.

I don't want to say that my opinion the only one true and I don't want to juge about neither of those persons. I don't think of them as bad or good.

Just a few minutes ago I watched the new D'espairs Ray PV from Kamikaze...it kind of made me sad because it feels like D'esapirs Ray is struggeling to keep up with the changing VK scene and the new bands.This is normal, but I didn't feel any heart in that song at all. I heard a lot of people who disagreed with the new styling or the new musical development.

But aside of this...I feel blessed that I can watch the bands grow and change through the years. Because we all change and grw our selfs...so I think that it is a good thing that the bands we listen to also can change. Because time never stands still.


"I wanna fly and keep on flying.
I wanna change and keep on changin'."

Ahh sorry minna-san it's been a while ne.
I kinda feel lonely, so I'll just start babbling senseless shit okay ? xD

I just finished reading "Black Cat"...awww I really like that manga, just too bad it's aleady over. U___U
Besides I'm in a manga reading-mood and I really discovered quite a few manga I really like.
"Alive" is such a great manga, I love it ! *_____*
And I found "BLAME" again, thanks to my sisters enormous memory.
I did already read "BLAME" but that was like...1 or 2 years ago, and I still enjoy the really impressive pictures of this manga.

I really have a strange kind of taste ne.*

There are a lot things I want to write about right now, but that would be really boring.


I think I have grown in this past weeks...I don't know why and how but I noticed that I really feel and think about things differently now. Still I feel something unpleasant coming near...wonder what it's gonna be ne.




(*"alive" and "blame" both are very voilent mangas suite for adults only. "Black Cat" isn't less voilent but at least it doesn't show detailed splatter.)



TEEHE

I really want to have a tatoo...right now I love the idea of drawing my own design....but I really don' have any inspiration. =___="

It's a little late but I'm still waiting for philip to come online...nyan.

maybe I'll draw a little, while I'm waiting...


tomorrow I'll have to meet my mother...daaah...






boredom

uhn..I have to handle a american keyboard right now...Y and Z are switched and the other symbols are at an other place too...so sorry if I make mistakes. xD

Anyways...I am working since yesterday and I just returned home because work is from 14h to 23h. For the time I'm working, I live at grandma's...it's quite relaxing to live here ne.


But...something is strange the last few days. O____o"

1.I'm really energetic...I actually thought 8 hours work would be tiring, but I'm really hyped up all the time...but only when I have to carry somethin heavy...(all the time) when I have to scan packages, I get bored. At school I sleep all the time...and I do nothing but sitting xD

2.Everytime I'm finished with work...a lightning strokes, a thunder growls and a storm begins...so Im always wet when I reach the house. haha ^^"

3...this may sound strange...but my snot...is black...I'm thinking about covering my mouth and nose...it is really dusty at work...and propably really unhealthy...xD



Maah I'm getting tired...wooow


oyasumi

hello it's me who is hyped up at 02:11 in the moring...lD~ 

I met philip-chan yesterday and when I was buyin a birthday present for Polina-san we met Steini-san.
This guy is really kind of famous in the anime/manga scene because he organizes the "contopia" and such. He also is staff member of the Rock identity and helps out at J-rock concerts. I saw him at the miyavi and ayabie lives and at the jshock before.

anyway takagi-san was like "Hey how's the band doing." and after a while Steini asked us to give a live at the contopia in april next year.

wooow I'm really exited and really happy.



...but...


my mobile still hasn't got any money...and actually I wanted to meet vanessa-san tomorrow...I'm such a bad person...=____="" douh




I'm talking to philip-chan right now...we are not quite ok with the bandname and I'm still unhappy with our song...maaah...


anyway...good night ne.

こちらはベンベンさんです。



ベンベンさんは猫に餌を採る
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。
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猫がいません。

＼（〇_ｏ）／コワイヨー


By the way...happy 4th July to all americans out there ! I wish I could celebrate with you ! Q___Q



and benben-san does too !

aaah I didn't write quite a while didn't I...

mah tomorrw is the first day for me to eat something again.
I didn't eat for 5 days...it sure had some result ne.
My goal is about 45kg weight. :D
From now on I'm really hyped up.

がんばります。

yappin is visiting his grandparents in Japan...so he is gone for the next 4 weeks.
Time for me to work on this new songtext I came up with recently.
(by the way we're writing in "manly japanese" I'm really happy about that :D )

But now...it's just me and philip-chan...that's not good...xDD
just to mention the "ROTFL-COPTER !!!" and "ATOM ROTFL !!!!" omg XD

ok ok...saying good night now...


good night :3

Meine gedanken zu diesem PV:

OMG...boygroup..ou geile gitarren!...omg boygroup...OMG WAS IST DAS ?! DAS MACHT MIR ANGST !! Argh geh weg ! >____<...die fangen jetzt aber nicht an synchron zu tanzen, oder ?...erm...der sänger könnte ruhig mal nicht so böse in die kamera starren...omg, wie der starrt...gehört das zum style oder wie ? Loool...er starrt...ou ja junge, die kamera ist dein feind ! du darfst sie nicht aus den augen lassen !
gawd das blonde ! omg wie der das schlagzeug haut...richtig gay...loool...ou nein, jetzt kommt der sänger wieder...omg loool wei der starrt...ouu jaah bööööööse kamera !
...die fangen jetzt abe rnicht an synchron zu tanzen oder...O___o"
BOAH Blondchen sing doch nich so agressiv ! chill mal...OMG flashlight! was für spezialeffekte ! loool noch nich ma gröhlen können aber headbang machen...wie kann man daraf headbang machen..looool
jetzt fangen die doch an zu tanzen oder ?...aber jetzt!...nein...jetzt!...nein..*drop*
omg die gehen durch die gegend ! wie hart ist das denn?! xDD
iiieh blondie soll weg gehen...>____<"

ich hatte auf jedenfall viel spaß xD

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